Conflux2 - April 2005

 

Friday 22nd

 

6:30am: Awaken feeling like a zombie (you can never find one when you want one, can you?). Son’s second birthday party the day before, and I spent the day rushing back and forth with giggling toddlers hanging off me like monkeys on a tree. The more sensible fathers had retreated inside for a beer.. Frantic shave, shower and pack, farewell the Non-Fannish Wife and As-Yet-Undecided Son, then head off in the company car (free petrol – yay!) to pick up Edwina Harvey.

 

9:00am: Arrive in Edwina’s street, and suddenly go a blank on which number she lives at. I give her a call on the mobile. “Hi Ed, I’m out in the street and I’m -” a guy walks past, leading a pony, “- looking at a pony.” Bizarre. “Is it 7 or 17 you live at?” Turns out to be 12. I offer to carry her case to the car. It weighs approximately a tonne. I suspect it’s full of delicate ceramics, and the noise it makes as I slam it into the boot confirms this. And then we’re off, puns flying all the way. It’s pretty smooth sailing, with very little traffic on the road. The only awkward moment occurs when Edwina reaches for the bottle of Diet Coke nestled strategically between my thighs, and misses. Accidentally, she says.

 

12:15pm: Arrive in Canberra, and spend a good ten to twelve seconds pointing out the various tourists attractions to Edwina as we scoot around the city circle to Rydges. I fling Edwina and her luggage from the car, then – pausing only to say a quick hello to Deb Biancotti, Karen Miller and Donna Hanson, who are milling around reception – I drive off to the hostel where I’ll be staying. Parking turns out to be a cinch – about half the city circle roundabout is occupied by a vast car park. Parking for two hours costs $2, but will be free over the weekend. Free parking in the middle of a city! To put it in perspective, this would be like parking free in the Pitt Street Mall, or on the steps of Flinders Street station. Bizarre and charming.

 

The ACT Backpacker Hostel hasn’t changed a bit from last year. There’s still a faint whiff of flatulence in the air as I check in. Turns out I’m actually in the same room as last year, a share-dorm with bedding for nine people. There are no other occupants yet, so I take a few minutes to settle in. There’ll be little chance to do this once the topless German girls and farting Irishmen arrive (see last years’ Conflux report).

 

1:00pm: Head off to take a look around town.

 

1:10pm: Finish looking around town, and return to the hostel.

 

Seriously, I do love Canberra. It’s clean, quiet and uncrowded, with all necessary shops and facilities available (although admittedly a far smaller range than in Sydney or Melbourne). My only gripe about Canberra, when I lived here in ’96, was that it was difficult to make friends. Most of the population seemed to be made up of frighteningly insular groups: army boys, uni students, public servants, and locals who’d spent their entire lives amongst the same surroundings and people. I’d probably find it quite pleasant living here now, though, having since been befriended by many lovely folk in the local SF community.

 

The only thing I still hate about Canberra is that FREAKY TALKIN’ WALL in the City Square – some sadist’s idea of art, which plays recorded voices at you as you pass it. It catches me by surprise as I saunter by. Glad I brought spare underwear.

 

2:30pm: Back to Rydges to check in at registration. Karen Herkes is already hard at work, juggling ‘con-related duties with trying to keep her young daughter Tara occupied. Tara’s specialty, it seems, is face painting. Would I like to have my face done? Huh? Would I? Huh? In my book, telling a kid ‘maybe’ when you have not the slightest intention of letting her anywhere near you with a pot of grease paint is not technically a lie, and it seems to keep her happy. I am handed my very own ‘Con Bag – goody! – which contains a very nicely-produced souvenir booklet, and about 17,000 flyers. Cool! Now I can wallpaper my house.

 

3:30pm: Other committee members are beginning to surface – Trevor Stafford, Nicole Murphy, Rose Mitchell, Chris Andrews - as well as some of The Usual Con-Going Suspects: Zara Baxter, Rob Hood, Cat Sparks, Robbie Matthews and his daughter Steph, Lily Chrywenstrom, Stu Barrow and his lovely wife Jenny, Bill Congreve, Michelle Marquardt. Not to mention the all-important Guests Of Honour; Terry Dowling, Maxine McArthur, and Jennifer Fallon. The first floor of the hotel, where the ‘con is taking place, is beginning to bustle. Traders are bumping their wares into the enormous room set aside for Hucksters and the Art Show. Committee members are charging around doing Important Stuff. Aware, as usual, that I have thus far contributed very little to the planning of this ‘con, I begin to follow them around asking if they need any help with anything. Do ya? Huh? Do ya? Do ya need any help? Eventually, Nicole takes pity on me and directs me to a just-arrived truckload of heavy-looking partition stands that need to be carried from downstairs up to the Hucksters’ room. A number of volunteers (most of them female) have already lined up to move the (extremely heavy, as it turns out) partitions, so I do my bit with some vocal encouragement for those already staggering towards the stairs. “C’mon, Sparks,” I tell Cat, “put your back into it!” “Piss off,” she suggests.

 

With all the partitions dragged upstairs, under the expert direction of Les Petersen we begin to assemble and arrange them into something resembling a tiny maze in the corner of the room. Deb nearly gets lost several times trying to navigate her way out, and it strikes me that this area would make a great crèche for con-goers with littlies. Just shove ‘em in and forget ‘em.

 

5:00pm: Finished with partitions, I head down to Cahoots Bar for a beer. Others have had a similar idea, and I end up sinking a few schooners (of light!) in the corner with Cat, Rob, Zara, Laurie Brown, Kate Eltham and others. Eventually, I begin to feel guilty about sitting around while the rest of the committee are slaving away upstairs, so I head back to the rego desk. There, I bump into Yunyu, the Triple J Unearthed-winning artist whom Trevor and I have drafted to sing at the opening cocktail party and the masquerade. We chat briefly, then she asks about the logistics of setting up her equipment in the foyer. Terrified by the prospect of having to take actual responsibility for something, I opt to find Trevor (who, I tell Yunyu, is much more knowledgeable about…stuff). Now, where could he be..?

 

6:00pm: By complete coincidence, my hunt for Trevor leads me back to Cahoots. Hi guys! Stay for a drink? Well, I really do need to find Trev – you’re buying? Well, okay then.

 

6:30pm: Hey, we’re missing the opening ceremony!

 

7:00pm: Hey, we’re still missing the opening ceremony! I’d better order a burger to fortify myself for the walk back upstairs.

 

7:25pm: Regretfully (and rather unsteadily), I make my way back upstairs, to find that Trevor has appeared, and Yunyu’s equipment has been set up. Everything okay here? Good, good. Glad I could help. I stagger over to the rego desk to see if I can ‘assist‘ Karen Herkes. Need any help, Karen? Huh? Do ya? Do ya need any help? Apparently not, so I stick my head around the door of the room where Jennifer Fallon is giving her GOH speech, just in time to catch her saying that she ‘d love to know what sort of religious significance future archaeologists would impress upon her remains if she were buried with a pewter dragon, an electric kitchen knife, a bowling ball, and a vibrator (several days later, Chris Barnes relates to me his theory that the archaeologists would simply take one look at the various artefacts and say, ‘Oh look, it’s Jennifer Fallon!’).

 

7:30pm: The cocktail party kicks off with the launch, by Simon Brown, of the CSFG anthology of Kaaron Warren’s work, The Grinding House. I’ve never met Kaaron before, and - from my vantage point at the back of the crowd - I can’t actually see her as she gets up to speak. A mystery woman! How exciting!

 

Note to self: I must get out more.

 

The launch over, Yunyu begins her set. I’ve kinda been dreading this moment: ideally, the ‘con attendees will enjoy us doing something a little different at the opening cocktail party, but then again they mightn’t. I wait with baited breath. Yunyu starts off with one of her ‘ghost ballads’, and the applause from the attendees nearest when she finishes is a great relief. As she continues her set, a small crowd of attendees move closer, the applause growing with each new song. Success! Reassured, I begin to drift about the crowd, shmoozing. Zara Baxter corners me and tells me to buy a copy of the Gastronomicon anthology/cookbook, ‘cos she’s got a piece in it. Isn’t the launch for this tomorrow? Yes, she says, but you should buy one now and avoid the rush. I really am spectacularly easy, and she knows it. Still, at just $10, it’s certainly value for money.

 

One thing that both unsettles and warms me is the fairly significant number of people who come up to me during the party and quietly congratulate me for being so open about my recent battle with clinical depression, telling me that they know what I’ve been through as they also are sufferers. There’s obviously a lot of it about. I posted all the details of my illness on my website about a year previously (which makes me realise how seldom I get to meet up with some of these people) because my shrink suggested it as a form of therapy: if everyone knows about it, I can’t pretend there’s nothing wrong. Simple.

 

Also slightly unsettling is the number of attractive women who greet me warmly as I wander around. Not a bad thing in itself (I’m no fool!), except that, while they all seem to know who I am, I’ve not the faintest idea who most of them are. I don’t think I’ve dated any of them (or even gone out with them, for that matter). Must be old age. Or bromide in the Canberra water…

 

8:30pm: Cocktail party still in full swing, I retreat to the lounge suite on the other side of the rego desk, joining Robbie Matthews and Michael Barry, both of whom are later contributing with myself to a panel on Lovecraft. Seems a bit like having the Three Stooges talk about Tolkien, but what do I know about programming? Michael is busy constructing a non-Euclidian hat from straws and tinfoil, which will apparently shield his brain from the Elder Gods. Far, far too late, methinks. Robbie has some notes ready. Good Lord – we were supposed to prepare for this? Still, at least Michael isn’t prepared either, right Michael? Michael points out that he has the non-Euclidian hat. Dammit. I’m going to have to rely upon my wits, which means I may as well go home now. Still, all is not lost. There’s still time to make hasty preparations before the panel starts, so of course I opt instead to construct a super-long straw from Michael’s leftover materials, through which I attempt to suck beer from a glass. The straw is so long, the beer goes flat before it reaches my mouth. Bleugh! See? says Michael. It’s the Elder Gods at work. Now, if the straw had been non-Euclidian

 

9:30pm: The cocktail party breaks up, and the panel programme begins. The ‘con booklet mentions a Daikaiju panel, but I’m not sure which room it’s in. Committee member, and I know sod-all. Mind you, nobody else I ask seems to know either – not even Rob Hood, who’s running the panel with Bob Eggleton. But eventually the room is found, and Rob ‘n’ Bob deliver a highly entertaining and enthusiastic dissertation on the joys of absurdly big beasties to a regretfully small audience.

 

10:30pm: The combination of alcohol and it being way past my bedtime (sad old git, ain’t I?) is weighting my eyelids as I stagger to my panel. Karen Herkes’ Virtual Ghost Tour of Canberra is still in session, so we wait ‘politely’ for her to finish (Cough, cough, a-hem, isn’t this panel supposed to finish now?, etc). The little I hear of the ‘tour’ sounds really cool, though.

 

Taking our seats, Robbie, Michael and myself are joined by Steph, who is there solely to keep an eye on the cute plush Cthulhu doll (hers) that Robbie has pinched for use on the panel. Much crap is talked, mostly by myself and Michael (although at least Michael’s crap is entertaining). Robbie manages to impart some actual Information Of Interest to the audience, but I’m still quite glad the audience didn’t have to pay to get into this specific panel. Oddly, the audience seems to dig us. Wish I could remember exactly what I said, so I can re-use it.

 

11:30pm: Down to Cahoots for a quick drink, then drag myself back to the hostel. My dorm is still largely unoccupied, apart from a guy who has taken up occupancy of the bed directly opposite mine. Staring silently at me through coke-bottle specs, he’s the spitting image of Harry Potter. He also looks like the sort of guy the neighbours later describe as being ‘so quiet’. Despite this, I’m asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. Should have put on pyjamas first, really…

 

Saturday 23rd

 

8:30am: Awaken to find Harry Potter gone. Probably still out burying bodies. Rise, shower and dress (in that order), then off to that quaint little Scottish restaurant McDonald’s for breakfast (completely forgetting that Edwina had generously invited me to quote her room number at Rydges in order to receive a free continental breakfast!).

 

9:30am: Arrive at Rydges, and take the opportunity to look around the Hucksters’ Room. The line-up includes Dymocks, Mirrordanse Books/Infinitas Bookshop, Agog! Press, Celestial Cobbler/ASIM, Cre’atures (plush fantastical beasties), Conflux3 and Conjure, CSFG, and Greg Toohey’s second-hand books, with the Art Show featuring works by Brian Smith, Shane Parker, Marilyn Pride and Bob Eggleton, among others. Aware of having extremely limited funds this year, I do the sensible thing of picking out all the things I want to buy, then vowing not to actually purchase them until the last day of the ‘con, so hopefully they’ll have been sold and I won’t go broke. Clever, eh?

 

10:00am: Rego desk duty. Not as exciting as you might expect, but you do get to meet lots of interesting people. One of my specific duties is to inform people that poor Jackie French – who was due to arrive today – has suffered a heart attack and won’t be able to attend  Later, I hear that Jackie was worried we’d be cross with her for ‘flaking out’! To show we’re not, we send around some boys with a big bunch of flowers to break her legs.

 

The desk seems to be doubling as a traders’ table, with small piles of goods spread along it: Conflux and Dragoncrosse t-shirts, small press publications, and so on. I’ve brought along a box of 80-odd copies of Worlds Apart with me (as well as a few desk lamps donated from my shop) to give away as prizes, but I don’t think we’ve got 80 prizes slated, so I decide to start thinning the pile by putting a stack of them on the table with a big ‘Free – Please Take One!’ sign on them. I know many authors who would frown upon such behaviour, but these books have been gathering dust under my bed for a very long time, and I’ll be glad to see the back of them. Besides, folks are always happy to receive a freebie, and I like making people happy. Quite a number of books are taken over next hour, some of which I’m asked to sign. I also give a pile each to Rob and Edwina, suggesting they offer them as a giveaway with whatever publication they happen to be flogging. As a result, neither of them end up selling anything.

 

11:30am: Rose Mitchell arrives, stops to chat for a while, then realises she was supposed to be on a panel that started half an hour earlier. The topic: How To Run A Convention. I suggest that she staggers in there now, waving a half-empty glass of champagne, and slurring on about how important it is to be punctual at these events. Well, it’s a laugh, innit? Oddly, Rose declines to do so.

 

12:30pm: Rego duties over for the day, I head off to attend a belly-dancing class with Helen Patrice. The class has already begun as I arrive, with the other attendees standing barefoot in a circle around a microscopic blonde woman. I surreptitiously take a seat, looking forward to a relaxed perve. ‘Oh, no you don’t!’ says Helen. ‘You attend, you dance!’ Reluctantly, I join the circle. There are about ten of us; one other bloke, the rest women, ranging in age from a grandmotherly type to fifteen year-old Steph Matthews. Helen begins by showing us how to rotate our hips in the familiar belly-dancing fashion. To my surprise it’s not all that difficult to manage, and I’m soon shimmying at least as well as the next overweight hairy baboon. Helen is a great teacher, proficient in Idiot-Proof Instruction (a godsend for me), and very entertaining. Much of the class is punctuated with comments on the best way to maximise boob-usage in order to get tips when dancing in restaurant, each comment immediately followed by an apology to the younger attendees. As we practice the more vigorous moves, Helen keeps asking whether anyone is experiencing any discomfort. Everyone denies it, but after forty-five minutes of hip-shimmying, hand-waving, stomach-rippling and so forth, I feel as though I’ve been wrestling with a gorilla. But enough about my sex life.. I’ve greatly enjoyed the class, and vow to look into taking up belly-dancing as a regular thing.

 

1:15pm: Wandering through the Traders’ Room again (covet, covet!), I manage to miss the launch of the CSFG Gastronomicon. Good thing Zara forced me to buy a copy the previous night!

 

Time for lunch. I walk into the city to visit Kingsley’s, the best chicken franchise in the world, and indulge in one of their subs with chips. God, I miss Kingsley’s! On the way back, the bastard talking wall catches me again, speeding the passage of lunch through my alimentary canal.

 

3:00pm: Back to the ‘con. Time to seek out our hotel liaison to book a set-up time for tomorrow’s masquerade. I am introduced to an affable young guy named Paul, who agrees to open up the nightclub for Yunyu and myself tomorrow at 6.00pm. I run upstairs to let Yunyu know. “We already organised them to open it up at 5.00pm,” she tells me. Oh. Have I mentioned that you’re welcome to put some of your CDs out on the Rego Desk for sale? She points. They’re already there. Well…okay then. Glad I could help.

 

Richard Harland seeks me out, wanting to discuss our ‘plan of attack’ for the Great Debate this afternoon. Plan? We need a plan? Preparing for the debate this year has been a bit of a roller-coaster ride for me: originally drafted to argue the Affirmative on ‘Fantasy Has Had A Greater Impact On World Culture Than SF’, I’d spent a couple of months working on my argument, only to be told a week before the ‘con that I’d actually been selected to argue the Negative. Somewhat peeved, I agreed to do so, so as not to rock the boat. Thus, a week of frantic work on preparing a Negative argument. Then, this very morning, an offer by Karen Miller (arguing the Affirmative) to swap places. Hurrah! (he cried, exhaustedly).

 

Richard, who is obviously taking this debate far too seriously, suggests that we each outline our arguments so that we don’t end up contradicting each-other. Good idea. Richard, Jennifer Fallon and Paul Ewins each take a moment to discuss how they’ll be talking about the effects of fantasy fiction on pre-industrial society and world culture in general, and the failure of society to accurately follow the lead of SF. I take a moment to discuss how I’ll be royally taking the piss, and the discussion goes downhill from there. I think it’s around the time that Jennifer begins to describe her ultimate fantasy (two eighteen year-olds) and the demands of female fans to read all the ‘hot boy-on-boy action’ that ‘obviously gets cut from her books’ before publication, that an exasperated Richard drifts away.

 

4:00pm: Back to Cahoots. There are no other ‘con attendees there, but quite a number of middle-aged golfer types, who seem to be in town for the ANZAC service on Monday. A nice quiet drink is interrupted only by the continual squawkings of one of the group who looks and sounds like a fat, half-plucked cockatoo.

 

4:30pm: The Great Debate begins, ably MC’d by Greg Toohey. This years’ effort seems a little flat, despite brave and energetic arguments from both sides, possibly due to a lack of foolish behaviour. It’s all so sane and rational, until Anthony Seale (arguing the Negative, with Keith Stevenson, Russell Kirkpatrick and Karen Miller) gets up and does a piss-take that puts my own piss-take to shame, thereby deservedly securing a win for his team. Mind you, it seems that the Affirmative was fighting a losing battle right from the start: when asked by Paul Ewins ‘Who here is automatically going to vote for the Negative, no matter what?’, over half the audience put their hands up.

 

5:30pm: Off to the panel featuring Inventive Entertainment, where those hoping to break into TV and movies will be given an opportunity to make a pitch. The guys from IE give an introductory talk about the whys and wherefores of their company, then ask if anyone in the audience is interested in making a pitch in front of the rest of the group. A few hesitant hands go up, and the pitchers are asked, one-by-one, to get up and do their stuff. It all seems extremely Hollywood, with the IE guys responding well to phrases like ‘it’s Lord of the Rings meets Troy’ / ‘I Robot meets Blade Runner’ / ‘Lost meets ‘The Truman Show’, etc. Some interesting ideas are pitched (as well as some that make Battlefield Earth sound like a Nobel Prize-winner), but everyone is sworn to secrecy, so I’m not at liberty to the discuss the fantastic forthcoming ‘Alien meets Benny Hill’ project. The guys especially seem to like Mirren Hogan’s idea for a TV series based upon her own web comic. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for her!

 

6:30pm: I head downstairs towards the bar, but am intercepted by Cat, who invites me to join them from dinner. Aha! The guilt trip generated by last years’ ‘con report is obviously working. Cat, Rob, Deb, Chris Barnes, Alinta Thornton, a young lady named Jess and myself wander into the Civic Square. Rob knows of a good (cheap) Chinese restaurant, but when we get there it’s chockers. We end up at Woodstock, as ACT ‘congoers so often do, and order a round of pizzas. The pizzas here are really good: thin, crispy crusts, with minimal topping, so the flavours don’t overwhelm each-other. Aussie pizzas usually sport a super-thick doughy crust with an entire buffet piled on top, which make eating one a bit like consuming a tomato-pasted doona. No competition to the Woodstock fare.

 

Deb and Rob need to rush back to the ‘con to sit on separate panels, leaving the rest of us to polish off the pizza. ‘Anyone for the last piece?’ ‘No, you have it.’ ‘No, that’s okay.’ ‘Okay, well I’ll have it then.’ ‘Can I have a small piece before you grab it?’ ‘Oh, look, why don’t you have it?’ ‘Well, only if you don’t want it…’ While Cat talks to herself, the rest of us surreptitiously finish the pizza, then stagger off into the night, groaning under the pressure of far more pizza than is good for us.

 

Have I mentioned before just how quiet Canberra is? Have I? At night, it’s like an above-ground cemetery with lights (and not many of them, at that). In demonstrating this point to my travelling companions, I walk across the main four-lane road bisecting the city centre at pensioner-on-Zimmer-frame speed. No cars visible in either direction. I lay down in the middle of the road, then have a short snooze. Still nothing. If this was Sydney, they’d have taken the lack of vehicles as an indication that this was unused land, and put up a couple of apartment blocks.

 

8:30pm: Chris and Alinta head up to Chris’ room ‘for a room party’ (suuuuuuuuure!), while the rest of us drift into Deb’s panel on ‘Writing Short Fiction’. Deb is chairing. This is a woman who has resisted every effort I have ever made to thrust her into the limelight, and here she sits, happily (and comfortably) directing proceedings! Cheek! She gives me a nervous glance as I enter: over dinner, I’d promised to ask ‘difficult’ questions at the end of the panel. Every time she looks in my direction, I grin evilly, and the growing tension seems to give her an edge. Chuck McKenzie, motivational grinner.

 

9:30pm: Back to Cahoots with the usual suspects, including Keith Stevenson and Louise Katz. Cat is looking dazed, and I suspect the non-stop action of Conflux, coming so soon after the non-stop action of Swancon, is taking its toll. Soon after I arrive, she staggers off to bed. Everyone else seems to be in a party mood, however, which is a good thing, as we’re all happy to move on to Chris’ room party when he finally comes downstairs to find out where we rude bastards have vanished to. And so the party continues with myself, Alinta, Zara, Kate, Stu, Jenny, and Nicole Murphy. Chris passes around the Honey Vodka (yow!), and, as our level of intoxication grows, we settle into an animated discussion of Keith Stevenson’s Cock (that is, the anthology entitled ‘Cock’, which Keith Stevenson is co-editing). I’m sure that by now everyone has heard most of the jokes, but here’s a few of the stand-outs (oo-er!):

 

Keith Stevenson’s Cock is a big undertaking – let’s hope he doesn’t blow it!

 

I look forward to the day when a bookseller slaps Keith Stevenson’s Cock down on the counter in front of me.

 

I can’t wait to stick my nose into Keith Stevenson’s Cock.

 

And from Zara Baxter, the ultimate cover-blurb endorsement: ‘Cock is the bukkake on the face of Australian publishing’.

 

Midnight: The party winds down, and I stagger back to the hostel. As expected, the room has filled up with flatulent Irish backpackers. We should probably add flatulent Irish backpackers to ‘the list’, along with death, taxes and Daddos. End up having an erotic dream about one of the other committee members, so hot that even the bed starts sweating. And no, I’m not telling who.

 

Sunday 24th

 

9:00am: Awaken to find the room smelling like a week-old omelette. Ergh. Hope nobody lights up.

 

Upon arriving at Rydges, I take a final, wistful look around the Traders’ room. After much browsing, I purchase a second-hand James White anthology from Greg Toohey. Greg very generously throws in a Mick Farren novel I’ve been eyeing off for the past few days. I have no idea who Mick Ferren is, or if he’s a decent writer, but according to the cover blurb, the novel features space-wasps with ‘awesome brain-implosion powers’, and there simply aren’t enough space-wasp-with-awesome-brain-implosion-power stories around these days.

 

10:00am: Time for my panel on ‘Humour in Speculative Fiction – the Darker Side of Light’, with Stu Barrow and Anna Tambour. As usual, I’ve done very little preparation for this, but having participated in so many panels focussing on variations of the same theme over the past six years, it all comes very easily. Anna brings a refreshing wealth of non-genre insight to the discussion. Certainly the audience seem to enjoy themselves (and, hopefully, us), and we leave feeling quite satisfied with ourselves.

 

11:15am: Rego desk duty. Everyone is looking extremely weary today, shuffling listlessly from one panel to another. Very different from the excited energy of day one, but I suppose it’s to be expected.

 

A wild-eyed, curly-haired fella in a thick coat approaches me. No, not Tom Baker, but Danny Lovecraft (cool name!), who writes genre poetry. We chat for a bit, then he asks if I’d mind him putting some of his poetry collections on the rego desk. Of course I don’t. I notice that many of the other goods have been whittled away – we’re out of Conflux t-shirts, several of Yunyu’s CDs have been purchased, and I’m down to the last twenty copies of Worlds Apart. Better put those aside, in case we need extra prizes for the masquerade.

 

Helen Patrice wanders by on her way to a panel, but opts to stay and chat to me for almost an hour (not that I’m complaining, of course - I wish more attractive blondes would talk to me!). We discuss such issues as belly-dancing (oddly enough), sleazy writers (names are named – but shan’t be repeated here!), and the embarrassment that comes with constantly forgetting your husband’s name (hers, not mine). I also learn that she’s a practicing witch, and a bit of a dirty bitch to boot. I tell her so. ‘Thank you!’ she grins, with an evil glint in her eye. I end up promising to be her groupie (the fact that I’m under 40 qualifies me), which may well entitle me to free belly-dancing tuition if I ever move back to Melbourne…

 

12:15pm: My rego desk shift is over, but I simply can’t be stuffed moving. Until I realise that, with my afternoon fairly jam-packed, this may be my final chance to grab some lunch. Down to Cahoots for one of their excellent burgers and (cue gasp of surprise!) a beer.

 

You know, it’s just occurred to me that I probably come across as a bit of a wino in these ‘con reports, so allow me to set the record straight. I’m not. However, I was a full-blown alcoholic from about the age of 19 through to the age of 24; a side effect of working the clubs as a DJ. It’s just too easy to mix work with socialising, and everyone wants to buy the DJ a drink. Ten beers a day was pretty average, sometimes followed by a couple of glasses of spirit to clear the palette. It wasn’t until I woke up naked next to someone unfortunate (on a whole lotta levels!), that I realised I actually had a problem. So I gave up drinking, cold turkey, shook violently for two days (yes, I was that bad), and didn’t touch a drop for a year. Since then, my tolerance for alcohol has greatly diminished. I used to be able to drink all night and still stand without assistance. Now, two drinks and I’m anyone’s, which is why I’m careful not to drink around that sexy Garry Dalrymple. Anyhoo, nowadays I don’t drink much at all, except when I’m at ‘cons (ref. the Swancon 26 incident, of which we shall never speak again), or whenever my wine-fancying parents come to stay (it makes the pain go away).

 

The burger is a long time coming – the one consistent gripe I’ve heard this weekend regarding Rydges is the slowness of service – but worth it. I wolf it down, then it’s back upstairs for the launch of Rob Hood and Robin Pen’s Daikaiju! anthology.

 

1:15pm: The launch is lots of fun. Cat opens with a demand that everyone buy a copy, then Rob ‘n’ Bob pretty-much reprise their panel from Friday night, talking about their passion for the giant monster genre, and the excitement that the antho has generated overseas pre-release. Chris Barnes, Richard Harland, Michelle Marquardt and myself take turns in reading from our respective stories. It all goes very well, but – as I point out to the audience – the prospect of doing a reading after Richard has done one is extremely daunting. If you’ve ever seen Richard read, you’ll know exactly what I mean. If you haven’t, let me just say that although everyone attending was expecting the inevitable sound effects, Richard’s highly realistic shriek of agony mid-reading still made the front row of the audience poop themselves.

 

Readings over, the audience descends upon the book table in a buying frenzy, and we contributing authors suddenly realise we have no pens with which to sign autographs. I volunteer to grab some from the rego desk, but am intercepted halfway there by an attractive blonde woman wearing leather. Yippee! Helen Patrice has obviously used her witchy powers to grant my wish. The woman turns out to be Sonja Goernitz, a young German (hello!) reporter, and editor of Writers magazine. Earlier in the month, Trevor had contacted me to mention that Sonja would be staying in the same hostel as I, and asked (on her behalf) whether I’d be interested in sharing a room. Obviously, she was aware of my reputation as a mild-mannered homosexual who would never think improper thoughts about an attractive blonde German girl.

 

Um, anyway, in the event, I pointed out to Trevor that, while I was quite open to the idea of sharing, it was unlikely that Sonja and I would end up in the same room as I was bunking down in a nine-bed dorm, and thus the topic had been dropped.

 

So here’s Sonja, introducing herself and saying how much she’s been looking forward to meeting me. Meanwhile, I can hear the cry for pens getting louder. As politely as possible I excuse myself - promising to chat properly later on - grab a handful of pens from the rego desk, and nip back to the Traders’ Room for what turns out to be a signing frenzy! All in all, an extremely successful launch.

 

2:30pm: I attend a panel on ‘Current Trends in SF, New Weird & Fantasy’, run by Lily Chrywenstrom, Bill Congreve and Rob Hood. It’s all extremely interesting, though tending to run off at odd tangents (the fault of the audience rather than the panellists) if not watched closely. Fortunately, Lily mercilessly drags the topic back on-course whenever the audience attempts to hijack it. In the right boots, that woman could be marching into Poland.

 

3:30pm: I’m tempted to go to the Small Press Publishing panel, run by Cat, Lily, Keith and Kaaren Sutcliffe, but decide instead to head back to the hostel to recuperate. I’ve got a big night ahead of me.

 

We have two new additions to the dorm: a couple of young, busty (so sue me for noticing!) French girls, who are parading around in very little as I arrive. I do my very best to ignore them (beyond a friendly hello, and careful maintaining of eye-contact), and spend, oo, several seconds sprucing myself up for the masquerade. Spruced, I pack up everything that I won’t be needing between now and tomorrow morning – I intend to head off first thing – and head back to the ‘con, clutching my carry-case of CDs.

 

4:30pm: I stop by the rego desk. What time are we looking at packing up? Five-ish? Perfect. I head for Cahoots, but am intercepted by an extremely excited Michael Barry. No, not that excited, thankfully. “Is that Jennifer Fallon over there?” he drools lustily. “I hear she’s a bit…naughty!” I ask if he’d like me to introduce him. Oh, yes, me and Jennifer go way back. “Jennifer? This is Michael, a sad fawning fanboy. Be gentle with him.” And so, to Cahoots.

 

4:35pm. Glug. Ahhhh.

 

5:00pm: Arrive back at the rego desk to find that pretty much everything has been packed away. Is there anything else I can help with? Apparently not. Art Show partitions? No, Rydges will be dismantling them themselves. I nod. Well, glad I could help.

 

And so, the Closing Ceremony begins. Dealing with the most important issues first, various articles of lost property are reunited with their owners. Then come the various Art Show awards. Judges Choice: Shane Parker. Best 3D Art: Michael Kraaz. Best 2D Art: Shane Parker. Best Amateur: Brian Smith (of whom I’m a massive fan). Best Professional: Nick Stathopoulos (at this point, Bob Eggleton gets up to do ‘the hair thing’ – whipping his long hair back and forth over his face like a headbanger – and the balding Nick follows this up with his own (groin-related) version). Best in Show: Shane Parker.

 

Donna Hanson takes a moment to thank the guests, followed by Trevor getting up to spruik Conflux3. A very impressive line-up of guests, including Ellen Datlow, but at $220 per membership (I’m sure I heard that right!), I’d have to sell my body to afford it. Hm. Let’s see…the going rate when I last sold my body, at age 24, was $50 a night, so…allowing for aging, loss of stamina, growing paunchiness, etcetera, the rate now should be…

 

Maybe I should just start saving up now.

 

Chris and Zara get up to plug ConSyder, the first Sydney convention in 14 years, followed by Kate Eltham, who invites everyone up to Brisbane for next years’ Natcon. It’s a tough call to make an event sound exciting after Trevor’s just trotted out Ellen Datlow, but Kate does promise – and I quote – ‘a fucking great weekend’. And so the Closing ceremony…closes. I grab a box of masquerade prizes from Donna, stop by Bobby McGee’s to deposit the goods in the DJ booth, then -

 

5:30pm: Burger and beer at Cahoots. I never said I wasn’t a burgerholic, did I?

 

6:00pm: Back to Bobby McGee’s to familiarise myself with the equipment. Yunyu and her entourage are already setting up their equipment. The DJ booth has been opened up, the equipment turned on. The sound rig is easy enough to work out, but the lighting is another matter. I press one button, and the club is plunged into darkness. Oops. I go to Rydges reception and ask whether it might be possible to send in someone who knows what they’re doing, to show me the ropes. A guy called Warren arrives shortly after, points vaguely at a couple of buttons, connects a couple of plugs, then leaves, telling me that it’s all on automatic sound chaser, so I don’t need to touch anything. After he’s gone, it occurs to me that I will need to touch the lighting controls at some point, so that we can hold the masquerade parade without blinding the participants. One of these switches must pause the lights, surely… I touch one button, and the club is plunged into darkness. I go back to reception and sheepishly ask them to send Warren back. Warren comes back, alters some connections, and takes time to show me what the buttons actually do (all while hardly rolling his eyes at all).

 

Lights overcome, I try a practice mix. And – as expected – I’m crap. Hey, you try maintaining a skill you only use once a year! After half an hour of torturing the bar-staff, however, the old rhythm comes back.

 

7:00pm: People begin to wander into the club, so I drop the mix and put on some light, funky stuff. A fair few folks are in costume, which is a good sign, and by 7.30 the club is almost as full as last year (not bad, considering we’ve got about half the number of attendees!). And so the night kicks off.

 

Definitely a party crowd; the floor doesn’t empty for the rest of the night (well, once, but who knew that putting on the Hamsterdance would kill the mood?), and the crowd seems to dig the mix of mainly 70’s and 80’s stuff, with a little classic rock thrown in. In fact, I don’t recall playing a recent dance song all night. The crowd congas to Hot, Hot, Hot and steps along with the Nutbush. As with last year, I actively push for people to request tracks, and the songs most people ask for fit beautifully into the playlist. Nick Stathopoulos asks for Popcorn. Bob Eggleton asks for ABBA. AC/DC for Helen Patrice (and yes, she belly-dances to it!). I even play a song for Bob that he requested last year, but which I didn’t have at the time: Kung Fu Fighting. That’s gotta be some kind of record..

 

At around 9.30pm, the music stops and the masquerade parade begins. Although the advertised theme was ‘VooDoo HooDoo’ (a nod here to Ella McKay, for her voodoo priestess cozzie, and Trudy Canavan and Paul Ewins for their life-sized, living voodoo doll, complete with gigantic pins sticking out of him), the theme on the night seems to be ‘cleavage’. Lily, Nicole, Jenny, and Jennifer’s yummy web minx (whose name I never got) are all likely to have someone’s eye out, and Donna Hanson – having vowed to give Lily a run for her money – looks as though she’s stuffed two bald-headed midgets down the front of her dress. Robbie Matthews also has great boobs, but has concealed them beneath his ‘Gamer’ costume, which consists of ragged sneakers, ragged jeans, ragged t-shirt, ragged beard, and ragged ponytail topping a ragged head. He later wins a prize for his ‘efforts’.

 

Most masqueraders are happy to strut their stuff for the cameras. For others, public display obviously seems like some sort of exquisite torture, and it takes much prompting from a twat with a microphone to drag them out onto the floor. Their nerves probably aren’t abated any by the fact that – having to MC this event from outside the DJ booth, which necessitates playing the same song over and over throughout the parade (easier to hit the ‘repeat’ button than anything else when you’re reaching in from outside) – I end up playing Herb Alpert’s A Walk In The Black Forest seven times in a row.

 

Parade over, the judges – Bob, Jennifer and Maxine – slink off (to the bar, I reckon) to consider their verdict, and Yunyu prepares to do her set. It takes her a few moments to prepare, so I take the opportunity to play some Really Bad Music, knowing that I have a captive audience who are hanging out to find out who wins the masquerade. Chucking evilly, I play Chirpy, Chirpy, Cheep, Cheep – the worst pop song ever – and bugger me if people around the room aren’t tapping their toes in time to the music! Bob Eggleton rushes up. “Man, this is my all-time favourite song!” Oho! A challenge! Okay then, let’s see how they like On Top Of The World by The Carpenters! Now people are singing along! Bob rushes up again. “Man, this is my all-time second favourite song!” I give up!

 

Fully prepared now, Yunyu does her set, and it goes really well; a more up tempo set than her previous one, which suits the atmosphere perfectly. The crowd gives her an extremely warm send-off as she finishes.

 

And now, the masquerade results. Jennifer begins presenting the awards, and it quickly becomes obvious that she intends to award a prize to pretty much everyone in the room. Crap – do we have enough prizes? I quickly make up four or five ‘major’ prize-packs (consisting of book-packs, signed Jennifer Fallon novels, desk lamps, etc), and smaller prizes – copies of Worlds Apart. Within minutes, everyone in the room owns a copy. Except for Robbie, who – deserving only a second-rate prize for his ‘costume’ – receives two copies. Yes, anything for a laugh, that’s me. As Jennifer finishes the presentation, Cat comes up and demands that we have a special ‘Best Cleavage’ award. I, of course, am outraged by such a sexist suggestion. No. Absolutely not, Cat. No way. Not on your nelly. Not in a million years. No, no, no, no, no.

 

Unless, of course, you’re happy to announce it, Cat…

 

Cat does just this, selecting appropriate competitors from the crowd, while I try to hide my outrage by pointing out a few busty wenches she’s overlooked. The judging is initially left to Nick Stathopoulos, who rushes down to the dance floor and urges the contestants to jump up and down on the spot. However, he is quickly dragged away, foaming at the, er, mouth, so Cat invites audience applause to pick the winner. Donna Hanson wins, and receives a very nice bottle of red. Second and third place winners each receive a desklamp. And – yes – a copy of Worlds Apart. Fourth and fifth-place winners get a warm embrace from me. Eventually I pole-vault back to the booth, and it’s back to the music.

 

Midnight: The night concludes with a rousing rendition of New York, New York, which brings everyone in the room down to the dancefloor in a great big leg-kicking, shoulder-hugging circle. Noice! Lights up, pack up, off to Cahoots for a well-earned beer.

 

It’s a very cheap round – everyone wants to buy the DJ a drink. God I miss DJing! I settle into a corner with the usual bunch, as well as Sonja, with whom I’m soon deep in conversation, discussing writing, life-stories, and the pain of long-distance relationships. Alinta and Kaaron Warren sit opposite me, grinning evil grins and making fruity remarks. What’s a good nickname for a guy called Chuck, they wonder aloud. “I know!” says Alinta. “What’s the male version of MILF?” “BILF?” suggests Kaaron. So it’s Chuck the BILF, which soon becomes Chucky Filth. Hey, don’t ask me to explain, I just drink here.

 

2:00am: Reluctantly, I decide to head back to the hostel. I’ve an early start. Sonja begs a lift, as she’s staying in the same digs. As we head out, several people ask Sonja if she needs a lift. “No, is alright,” she says. “I am going back with Chuck.”

 

I get some extremely funny looks as we leave together. Heh! Let ‘em wonder.

 

2:30am: Back at the hostel, after promising to keep in touch, Sonja and I part company. I carefully tiptoe into my dorm so as to not wake my roomies, and slip into bed. If I can get a decent six hours’ sleep, I figure I’ll be fine for the drive home.

 

4:00am: Jerk awake as the Irish Backpackers enter the room with all the silence and catlike grace of a herd of elephants falling through the roof of a homewares shop. The raucous bastards spend the next ten minutes conversing at the top of their lungs, while I lie there thinking ‘Surely they’ll shut up in a minute!” Eventually, one of the French girls – who obviously has more balls than me – savagely tells them to shut the fuck up. One of them unwisely makes an off-colour ‘witticism’ (I use the term very loosely) in response, and that’s it: the girls and I all snap, spitting abuse until the lads wisely shut up and go to bed. Soon after, we’re wishing they were talking again. Their snoring is deafening.

 

9:30am: I rise, shower and finish packing. The French girls are still giving the Irish backpackers dirty looks, but my whispered offer to help bury the bodies elicits a rewarding smile as I leave.

 

And so, home.

 

Mixed emotions today. There’s something depressing about heading home after a ‘con. It’s great to get back to the family, of course, but ‘cons are such a great form of escapism; so many interesting things to do and see and talk about, so many great people to meet – again, or for the very first time. Putting faces to folks you’ve only ever heard of before, or maybe chatted to over the internet. Socialising over an overpriced coffee, or arguing amiably over a beer (or five). It’s like a little alternative universe for speculative fans, with none of the distractions or discomforts of reality. The Canberra ‘Cons have always been like that, and it’s something I’m going to miss.

 

You see, a month earlier, my wife and I made An Important Decision…

 

Over the past ten years, my wife and I have moved from Sydney to Canberra, to Melbourne (my home town), and back to Sydney - home for the past seven years. Now, with a youngster in the family, Sydney becoming an increasingly expensive place to live, ongoing health issues, and so on, our need for a better quality of life is finally taking us back to Melbourne. To stay. Once and for all. Probably. A September departure seems likely.

 

I’ve made some absolutely brilliant friends here, in both Sydney and Canberra. They all know who they are, and – while the internet has certainly made the world a smaller place – I’m going to miss them terribly. Wherever Megan, Max and I end up settling, they’ll all be expected to come down and stay with us.

 

My entire life as an active fan and writer has been spent in Sydney. The people who have supported me through good times and bad are all here. The prospect of leaving is frankly terrifying.

 

And yet…

 

Melbourne has a booming SF community too, doesn’t it? And I do know some people down there…

 

I wonder how Continuum compares to Conflux..?

 

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