Poetry

Numb

The moment I first heard his words
I fell into a daze
The shock clouding all my senses
Tears blurred my vision like a haze

Since that ominous verdict
My mind has felt so numb
My life forever changed
Who knows what it will become

I tried to show my brave face
Be strong as they all said
But I couldn’t deny the reality
As I lay crying in my bed

I wanted to stay positive
It was easy to pretend
That I wasn’t scared of meeting
My premature end

They all tried to distract me
To show how much they cared
But although my body was present
My mind was only halfway there

I talk about the hard facts
So as not to get upset
I pathologise my symptoms
To play down the threat

I’ve lost my ability to focus
I simply can’t concentrate
It’s like I’m floating through the days
Awaiting my ultimate fate