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About 10 years ago we began our first adventure, a round Australia trip. We started at Toowoomba our home town, got as far as the Sunshine Coast, loved the area and the life style so much that we stayed. :) We moved into a litle flat in Golden Beach and began raising our family. The Sunshine Coast consists of a few coastal towns that begin at Caloundra and go up as far as Noosa Heads. The Sunshine Coast is only about 120 kms from our states capital, Brisbane. Unfortunately, things changed in 1998 and the ex-wife decided on a different path so the children and I are happily living here on the coast. In 2001, tragedy struck our family and my eldest son Adam, passed away. He was living away from home in another town for about a year and all seemed to be going so well. With financial, family and a whole string of other problems, he lost the will to go on. He had so many friends and family working with and praying for him but in his mind, the mountain was just too high. His letter to me was just so beautiful. If only he thought as much of himself as we thought of him. I think about him every day. I miss him all the more as I updated this page because its been 7 years since he left us. All this time with-out my dear boy. I go out to his gravesite, just to sit with him awhile, I often see a note left, maybe a unlit smoke or some flowers left beside and know it is not only me that misses him. Please remember, all that is good in your life can be taken away in a heartbeat. Remember your loved ones, give them a hug whenever you can, we get so busy with life and its problems, we forget to Love them, the way we should. I try to remember the good times Adam and I had, for thats what he would have wanted. I remember the fun times like our fishing trips, working on his Ute, his 18th birthday party, WoW, what a party, his fish, he loved his fish and could talk for hours about them, Adam had a heart of gold and I will miss him always!! (check out Adam's Page dedicated to his Memory -- {CLICK HERE') In late 2007, I faced another challenge as my partner and best friend walked out of our lives 4 days before Christmas. She said I failed to give her the respect, love and support she needed and has found it elsewhere. I wish Narelle, her family and friends the best, and hope she finds everything she is looking for. Her last e-mail to me was very upsetting, saying I treated her very badly and that our 'holidays' were he worst she has ever had. These words have hurt me more deeply then she understands, and I will make sure that never again she will have to go though those terrible times with me. She finished the e-mail by saying "My life is mine and your life is yours, let it be at that." and sadly, I will do just that. I always wondered how two people who once could not live a day without seeing eachother, could get to the point of not even talking, nearly hating eachother. I know now, their hearts become cold and hardened, their pride wont let them forgive, they let hate rule their thoughts, they find others to cling too, they make everyday relationship problems out to be unclimbable mountains, but mainly, people change and sometimes, not for the better.
I began building this website wanting to do something as a rememberance to Adam, however the project seems to have
grown and branched out alot more since then. The main focus still is Adam, as he means so much to me, however, if you could do me a peronal favor, as you read through the site, take 2 minutes out to hug your kids or loved ones, for you never know what lies around the corner. |
